{"id":980,"date":"2020-03-27T22:18:36","date_gmt":"2020-03-28T02:18:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/?p=980"},"modified":"2020-03-28T22:27:01","modified_gmt":"2020-03-29T02:27:01","slug":"random-notes-for-a-horror-writer-who-might-write-about-a-national-emergency-in-the-future-and-should-remember-what-living-through-one-is-like-part-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/random-notes-for-a-horror-writer-who-might-write-about-a-national-emergency-in-the-future-and-should-remember-what-living-through-one-is-like-part-one\/","title":{"rendered":"Random Notes for a Horror Writer Who Might Write About a National Emergency in the Future and Should Remember What Living Through One is Like, Part One"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>A situation like this really shows you what a lot of people are made of, for better and for worse.<\/p>\n<p><b>Ignorance is Not Bliss:<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Viruses are not Tinkerbell. They will not go away if you don\u2019t believe in them. What\u2019s happening in the US right now is the inevitable outcome of people pretending that science is just an opinion. That was never going to end well. <span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b>Selfishness:<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Americans have truly embraced the idea that they can do whatever they want, whenever they want, totally consequence-free. It\u2019s been chilling to watch.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>There are people who have no concept that staying home isn\u2019t just about their own safety\u2014it\u2019s about not endangering others. And even after they\u2019re told, they don\u2019t care. They\u2019re gonna go on Spring Break or eat in a crowded Red Robin, because freedom.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Another kind of selfishness: There\u2019s a stark difference between the people who go shopping and take only what they\u2019ll realistically need vs. people who will grab every last package of something, either to hoard or to resell. If someone else who needs meat or toilet paper misses out? Too bad, so sad.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Today I read about a CVS in Washington, DC that brought police officers in before they unloaded a shipment of toilet paper just to maintain order. Good grief, people.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b>Public Shaming:<\/b><\/p>\n<p>If you are the type to grab up the entire shipment of a high-demand store item, and someone nearby thinks to catch you on video, you might end up Internet famous for being a selfish shitbag.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>If you\u2019re dumb enough to brag on TV or Twitter about how cool you are to go hang out in crowds of people when we\u2019re all supposed to be sheltering in place, those of us in our homes who have a whole lot of free-floating anger about this situation just might train it on you.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>That\u2019s been an interesting wrinkle in all this, something I might not have thought about if I were conjuring up an apocalyptic situation on my own steam.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I haven\u2019t personally joined in any Twitter shaming mobs; it\u2019s just not my thing and there\u2019s already enough bad feeling in the world right now. But\u00a0the rage has been quite a sight to behold.<\/p>\n<p><b>You Will Miss the Damnedest Things:<\/b><\/p>\n<p>So a few days ago while I was meditating (something I\u2019ve done every day to try to keep myself from dissolving into a puddle of anxiety), I had a vision: I was back in my office at last, greeting all my coworkers with variations on \u201cHey, stranger! Boy, was that crazy or what?\u201d And it choked me up.<\/p>\n<p>And I thought: <i>What\u2019s wrong with me? Why am I getting emotional about the office, and not my mom? My family?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p>But I wasn\u2019t a terrible person: I was craving normalcy, the everyday. Being allowed back in the office, something terribly risky right now, would be a baseline that things were finally getting back to normal.<\/p>\n<p>The punchline, of course, is that my job ends at the end of March, so I\u2019m going to be denied that happy reunion scene no matter when the virus is contained.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Besides, before COVID-19 hit, I\u2019d been miserable at the office. Knowing we were all about to be cut loose was depressing. It wasn\u2019t a happy place at all.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>But right now, I\u2019d give a lot to have a normal workday\u2014to get up too damn early, to ride the bus and the subway, and sit at my desk for a while before that\u00a0happy time when I could head home.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Home, where I\u2019ve been for over two weeks straight now. Even for an introvert like me, that\u2019s extreme. <span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A situation like this really shows you what a lot of people are made of, for better and for worse.&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[44],"tags":[45,48,49],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/980"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=980"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/980\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":982,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/980\/revisions\/982"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=980"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=980"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=980"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}