{"id":655,"date":"2019-01-31T20:45:43","date_gmt":"2019-02-01T01:45:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/?p=655"},"modified":"2023-01-31T20:40:04","modified_gmt":"2023-02-01T01:40:04","slug":"borderlands-boot-camp-2019-stepping-way-the-hell-out-of-my-comfort-zone-part-two","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/borderlands-boot-camp-2019-stepping-way-the-hell-out-of-my-comfort-zone-part-two\/","title":{"rendered":"Borderlands Boot Camp 2019: Stepping Way the Hell Out of My Comfort Zone, Part Two"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>(Update 1\/31\/2023: My comments on the recent controversy involving Thomas Monteleone\u2019s racist and bigoted comments can be found here:\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/regarding-recent-events\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/regarding-recent-events\/<\/a>)<\/p>\n<p>On Saturday morning, I woke up at 6 am with a huge knot in my stomach. This was it: Critique Day, an entire day of listening to people tell you where you\u2019d gone wrong with your work. Gulp. It\u2019s not like I haven\u2019t been critiqued in the last several years, but having the speakers right in front of you at the time adds a whole new level of terror to the prospect.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>The night before, we\u2019d all drawn numbers and received schedules listing which instructor had which numbers for the four rotating two-hour critique periods.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I started off with Ginjer Buchanan and circulated through Tom Monteleone, Douglas Winter, and F. Paul Wilson. In the first two sessions, we went around the room going over each person\u2019s submission one by one, with the instructor giving the final in-depth critiques\u00a0for each piece.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>By the final two sessions, I\u2019d already been in groups with several of the same people, and both Winter and Wilson played with the format a bit and didn\u2019t make everyone talk for every submission.<\/p>\n<p>I won\u2019t give a blow by blow of what was said in every session, but by the end of it, I\u2019d heard a lot of criticism (absolutely none of which was mean-spirited or hurtful), but also received a lot of great feedback and suggestions. And Douglas Winter is truly the king of cutting extraneous material from a story; I haven\u2019t even <em>started<\/em> working on all his suggested cuts for \u201cMara.\u201d<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Wilson explained why \u201cMara\u2019s\u201d ending didn\u2019t work for him; I\u2019d tried to leave the ending somewhat ambiguous but made it a bit <i>too<\/i> ambiguous, and what he thought had happened didn\u2019t make any sense given the way he&#8217;d interpreted the rest of the story. (I don\u2019t want to spoil my\u00a0ending, but I can see why he read it the way he did and that is indeed a problem, because I\u2019m sure he hasn\u2019t been the only one to make that inference\u2014or think it came out of nowhere.) \u201cYou\u2019ve got to give me a vine so I can swing from the rest of the story to its ending. It doesn\u2019t even have to be a big vine, but you\u2019ve got to give me <i>something<\/i>,\u201d he said. That\u2019s good advice for any piece of writing. He also had a lot of interesting ideas for what I could do to develop my main character and fix the ending.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>The day passed far faster than I\u2019d expected, and by six o\u2019clock I left Wilson\u2019s conference room with my head spinning. I\u2019d survived Boot Camp. Nobody threw my story in a wastebasket! I hadn\u2019t broken down crying in front of everyone!<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>There was one last trial to go: On Friday night, we\u2019d each drawn a slip\u00a0of paper with a sentence,\u00a0and we had until 9 am on Sunday morning to turn in\u00a0a two-or-three-page short story using our\u00a0sentence as the first\u00a0line.<\/p>\n<p>Some of the sentences were opening lines from actual published novels, and the instructors urged us not to Google them to figure out where they were from. (Other lines were from Wilson\u2019s voluminous notebook of potential first lines.) They also warned us not to get cute and slap the sentence onto any pre-Boot Camp work we already had going.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Smug little me assumed that all my Weekly Knob writing would be excellent training for this exercise, but it took until Saturday afternoon before I had an idea for a story stemming from my sentence: <i>You think you know about pain?<\/i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve never read <i>The Girl Next Door<\/i>, so I didn\u2019t recognize its opening line. I\u2019m pretty sure that novel isn\u2019t about a teenage girl who falls down the stairs at her prom and gets relentlessly teased about it, which was the story I came up with. Not my most inspired or gripping idea, but it was the only one I was able to develop into something resembling a narrative. <span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>After a fun dinner at Peter\u2019s Pour House with several of my fellow Boot Camp grunts, I pounded a cup of coffee and wrote for an hour before the Saturday evening guest talk, followed by a QA session in which we could ask our instructors about any aspect of the business.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Heather Graham is a prolific writer and a great speaker; she\u2019s full of hilarious stories and I ended up wishing I could hang out at the hotel bar with her to hear more of them. But the QA kept going well past 11:30, and I finally tapped out. I stayed up until 2 AM whipping my entry into a story-shaped thing I would be willing to let people read, and then I fell into bed for a few hours of sleep.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_656\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-656\" style=\"width: 400px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/01\/innerharborbreakfast.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-656 size-full\" src=\"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/01\/innerharborbreakfast.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"400\" height=\"498\" srcset=\"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/01\/innerharborbreakfast.png 400w, http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/01\/innerharborbreakfast-241x300.png 241w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-656\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">I returned to this lounge a lot just so I could stare out at the water and recharge.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>The next morning I headed up to breakfast and snagged a window table with a gorgeous view of Inner Harbor. And then it was Story Time. Writer Norman Prentiss made a surprise appearance to help read the entries aloud.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Our entries were all anonymous, which was too bad because I sat there thinking HOLY SHIT SOMEONE WROTE THAT IN TWO DAYS, MAYBE EVEN ONE? WHO EVEN ARE THESE PEOPLE AND HOW DID THEY DO THAT!? Those stories were <i>amazing<\/i>. I already knew I was in the company of a lot of insanely talented people because I\u2019d been reading their work for months, but I was blown away by how good everything was. The instructors pointed out how much better constructed these stories were, and the overall atmosphere was happy and relaxed. It was a nice way to close out an intense weekend. <span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>And that was it. We all waited in the Brookshire\u2019s lobby for our various cabs or rides, said our goodbyes, and started looking each other up on Twitter and Facebook, and then Bill came to collect me for a celebratory afternoon in Fells Point.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>You know that surreal, disjointed feeling you get when you\u2019ve been anticipating something for months and then it\u2019s over and you\u2019re wondering what to do with all the sudden free time and headspace? I had that feeling times ten. Bill laughed at how giddy I was; I had so much new knowledge clanging around in my head that I had no idea what to do with it all.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><strong>Coming up next: The thrilling (?) conclusion.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Update 1\/31\/2023: My comments on the recent controversy involving Thomas Monteleone\u2019s racist and bigoted comments can be found here:\u00a0http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/regarding-recent-events\/) On&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[23,9,5,19],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/655"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=655"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/655\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1837,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/655\/revisions\/1837"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=655"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=655"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nicolewillson.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=655"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}